december 10th dog treats for the world

At store now, feeling better than yesterday, thank god. I was pretty sick yesterday. 

One thing I miss is the comfort of a mom when you're sick. My mother is not capable of empathy any longer, so it is like grieving the death of someone when they are still alive. 

As her only child, I really miss it, and just a "mom" in general. Those TV commercials with a mom and adult daughter acting normal, sweet and nice get to me !

Yesterday,  the first time I was sick, was actually at her house and she still never asked how I was. She thought I was faking it so her dog wouldn't get a walk.

 

Later,  I was sick twice at my house. She called about $5 specials at Safeway and when I reminded her I was ill, she talked about her own ailments and the last time she threw up, which she blamed me and another lady for it, because we were there. She said that if we hadn't been in the hospital room at the time, she would not have been forced to have a pacemaker put in. 

None of that is true, of course. Even as bossy and controlling Nancy and I might be, there is no way we could command one of the best cardiologists in London and Arizona to do any type of a surgery. Her heart stopped seven times, so I think it was all the machines that told the doctor what to do, not Nancy or me.

I was only getting more sick listening to her talk last night.  She was carrying on that she probably had blood clots in her legs (she doesn't)

I had to hang up. I couldn't listen any longer. The worry and stress was hitting me, because as sick as I was yesterday and not knowing what it was, I knew I could not make it down a hospital hallway, if she ended up going to the hospital. 

I think it might have been food poisoning yesterday, instead of a flu, as I am out and about today! I've had soup and popcorn, not at sane time, but no stomach upset! Grateful for that. Had a cough for a bit during it all and first thing I always worry about is Covid. Wake up with a sore throat? It is what I go to. 

Maybe I am like mom, a pain in the leg is automatically the worst thing.  Sigh. 

It is like this now. I have went through so many rare and strange things since the lockdown in 2020, I still do not know what some of the illnesses I have experienced were caused by! Crazy stuff! 

Enough medical talk

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I just picked up bags and bags of snacks for all the dogs in this neighborhood! I don't mind barking at all. It's the way dogs communicate and the 2 skoos next door (our nickname for them) warn when people are walking past the house.

In this town there is a network of homeless ( ? ) people. Many who band together, take turns at the corners, and then divide their collection and at times it's a lot like a business. I talked at great length one time to one of the leaders of the network who returned from being in the last war. He explained it all to me. It's basically a job and you do not have to be homeless to be working the streets with them.

I have mixed feelings about the network as they seem to take away from people who really need assistance. You've probably read that I help homeless people. Nothing huge like so many people do. Mine is basically an intuition type of help, so a lot of times, instead of helping someone that's in a network of five or six people at a time, I go strictly for Women or people with dogs. The other day I helped a young couple with three dogs, all being well cared for, sweaters on, not skinny or matted. I wrapped up six wet dog food packages (easy peel open plastic ones) in a pretty Christmas bag with ribbon and tissue. Before I even pulled away, the dogs were eating. 

I was crying a bit as I knew I helped, or they would have just put it away like so many will put food you give, to the side. 

I do give food at times. I try to give fun stuff too, things that will be really liked. Women on the streets like nice clothing with the warmer items and everyone I have encountered like chocolate.  When I make up packs, I give drawing materials, face masks, and so on. 

I think seeing those dogs eating made me feel so good because I knew it wasn't a scam or the network (they often use kids and dogs for sympathy, to get more money. )

And before I get talked to about all of this, I do give money at times, I do not judge except with the signs telling people to smile. I really don't like those hahaha

I saw the young couple with the three dogs again and their sign just said "FOOD," and the golden retriever was sitting there in a green sweater just as cute and funny as anyone.

Go and do likewise 🍃💚🍃